Its now exactly 1 year since Norman had his 3rd surgery and exactly 3 years since diagnose with GBM on Nov 16 2oo7. His last MRI done in May this year have shown extensive growth and edema. Since July he could no longer walk but he could still sit up, eat well with his left hand and was alert and responsive. He could still smile occasionally too! On Sept 4th he could even sing Happy Birthday to my son Benny! We just celebrated my birthday on Nov 3rd but alas he could not even say happy birthday to me. But I thank God he is still with me and he is still my hero, my husband, my man!
Last week he had a big nasty scrotum abscess which rupture and leaks copious amount of pus and blood! It was horrendous!! but that was not the end! He had another abscess again and the hospice dr need to do an incision and drainage. It was done at home and boy, it was painful even with local anaesthetic! Norman was shaking like a leaf! Damn! I don't want to ask why but I couldn't help it.
He can hardly swallow now and chokes easily. Preparing his diet is a momentous task for me everyday. All food needs to be soften, smashed, blended and most juices make into jelly so that he can swallow it easier.
I can't think much these days. Some days are harder and I can sob miserably till i am exhausted, somedays I am thankful that God have given me the grace to plow on. I live day by day, hour by hour. May God bless you.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
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